To My Two Friends and All Parents

My dear (same age) friend, 

You might not know me, and I only knew you from reading the newspaper. Is kind of a regret to know you in such ways, probably it would be better that I didn't know at all. But the things that happen to you had cause me to wonder why. 

If is true that you gave up your life because of relationship problem, then my dear bro.. I'm sorry to say that I'm kind of disappointed in you. You had a good future ahead, and love is all around, not necessarily to be in the form of boy friend and girl friend, it can also be your love to your parents, love to your friends, love to those who in need, love for others who's unfortunate. 

I know is not easy to give up love, especially for someone you love whole heartedly...you might even think that the pain is so severe that you will never recover forever, you're wrong my dear bro as the best cure is always with you, time can heal. It might not happen over night, but as time passed, when feelings fade away, when finally logic and sense comes back to play, everything will be fine. And don't take the time being sorrow and sad, and begging her to be back but take the time off, to understand yourself better, to better prepare yourself mentally before the next one comes as one door shuts another one opens.

Is too late now as you're now faraway. But I hope if there's a chance to restart, my wish is that you can do it differently. 

My 18 years old friend, 

You might not know me, and I only knew you from reading the newspaper. Is kind of a regret to know you in such ways, probably it would be better that I didn't know at all. But the things that happen to you had cause me to wonder why. 

I remembered the time I was studying... people compare, even the teachers compare. What school you're in, what class you're in, what kind of grades you take, where do you tuition. People compare from head to toe. I compare as well, but the more I compare the more I realized how absurd it was and how foolish one could be. Education is not about competing, and study is not for others, not for your mom, not for your tuition teacher and definitely not for competing. This is not a competition, education is for yourself, to be someone with intellect, education comes in lots of form and no necessarily confines in the context of syllabus in class. Life itself is an education, but before giving it a try and embrace in life's education, you decides to end it by taking away your own life. And that I found it was the most stupid mistake ever. 

I had not been living on Earth for long, but I had enough experience to tell you that, your SPM results don't matter, what school you're in don't matter. All it matters was you. If success is only measured by a person's achievement in academic, then I do think that the world is blind. And for sure you have failed because you gave up so easily, and I can't help to condemn how narrow minded you have become or how you have grew to become. 

And if you have the chance to live long enough, in fact not too long you will realize how foolish you're and your SPM, STPM or A level or Grade point don't really matter that much. Of course you might have a better standing, but at the end of the day, is all you that matters. I wonder how it would hit you, when you finally step into the real world, when you realize your colleagues who's earning more than you do is from a village and studying on school that you never heard of before. Life's so much greater than just merely studying and getting good grades. Life's awesome, live it with passion, look, read, observe and listen from people of all walks of life, and you will soon realize how small you really are, and that problem of yours is actually not much of a problem, but a problem you gave it to yourself without noticing, and you are so busy trying to figure it out and lose out on the big picture in life. 

I can't say I agree on what you did, neither it is noble nor heroic but foolish. I can only say I am sorry for what had happened. 

To all Parents, 

I am glad that I had born into a good family, and had been showered with love and kindness from you all. But when the time comes, do allow me to stand on my feet, even if I fall, let it be my that help myself up. I do not need you to do my homework for me, I do not need you to tell me which school I should go to, and I definitely do not need you to tell me what should I become in the future. Because at the end of the day, you will leave this world earlier than I do and I have to live the rest of my life without you, hence is better off to let me learn to be the Captain of my own life a little earlier. 

I do need you to listen to me, and I will listen to what you have to say as well. Not necessarily we have to agree on each other. I know is for my own good, but I will never know how good it is if I didn't make the mistakes myself. I just need you to be with me, be my guidance and mentor but let me do the rest even thou you worry till death. I might regret on my own mistakes, but is better than I hate you for the rest of my life thinking you're the one to cause me to fail, is better of for me to take up my own responsibility and face it like a man. 

Go live your life, you spent most of the time taking care of me in your life, and you neglected of your own. The world is wonderful out there, but your eye sights are slowly fading, go enjoy the beautiful flower instead of watching over me all the time. As I hope I will not have to describe how beautiful the flower looks like to you when you're on your sick bed, as I will hate myself and be guilty for the rest of my life. 

I love you all, and I know you love me too, but there are things that I have to learn on my own and understand myself.